I'm not really sure how to start this post. See, I haven't been acknowledging what happened or is still happening in my life since the last week of January.
It was semi-dark at first but this was also God nudging me to go back to Him.
There were days that I'm full of questions I don't know any answers to. Like why I got sick and due to health reasons, had to quit my job, and so on.
While writing this, I'm tearing up because speaking or writing the truth is difficult, but eventually I have to do it. I'm in the process of facing the truth, after it comes acceptance.
The first time I talked to God about what's going on, I was crying and crying (I had my prayer book to guide me first because I was not able to put into words what I seek to the Lord at the time). It was refreshing, very , because I knew that time that God is with me. And as days go by, I still have questions which I seek for God's advice, like will this be the job for me (the company that I'm waiting for), what are the skills He gave me that makes me...well, me. His answer was, for me to wait. And honestly, at the time, I was having a difficulty in obeying on God's command because I was eager to know the answer, and I would also want to start working again.
A few days passed and God is revealing each answer to me. And I know that God also wants me to spend more time with Him. I gladly give time to talk to Him through prayer, read the Bible and read my devotionals. My devotionals were also very accurate, it's amazing. I read about obedience, truth, the holy spirit, what comes after the storm, and nothing is impossible. And oh, this is what I'm so stoked about sharing, I watched The Bible's premiere episode on History Channel and it was just really amazing, a must watch!
Anyway, my point is..God puts us in certain situations to test our faith. And reading His word and constant communication to Him and trusting His plan will help us fight it. The storm will pass. And each time we are facing struggles, we must remind ourselves our past successes. At some point, we already faced that kind of problem and made it, what makes it much more difficult now, right? And I have an advantage now because my relationship with God is stronger now than before, I just need to trust Him more.
Mmmkay, well that's what I could share so far, my mood suddenly shifted to I-just-want-something-light-to-talk-about kind of mood, haha. I'm still trying to share everything, but one step at a time. :) I'll try to come up with something to write tomorrow. But for now, I must try to get some shut eye.
Good night! x
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