Dreams/Revelations

It has been five months since I decided to leave all the bad things behind and to focus on my relationship with God. All those months gave a new perspective, major changes (improvements) and most especially, my love for God grew so much, that I won't go through a day without praying and talking/spending time with Him.

I'm becoming the woman I never thought that I dream to be.

Looking back, I've had my fair share of experiences that helped me become the person that I am today. I wouldn't say I regret making those decisions that caused heartbreaks and being seriously broken, because with each of the trials that I faced...and still facing, are God's ways of polishing me and for me to be so much closer to Him. Before, I was looking for the wrong things, I thought I needed to fill a hole in my heart, and I thought that being with someone would give me happiness...but I was completely wrong. It was just temporary happiness, worldly things. Then I realized that it was not what I needed, I was being attacked by the devil and not having a strong faith, I fell for it every single time and I ended up wounded. And if I didn't have a patient sister who never gave up on me, I would never find my way back.

Since I decided to regain my relationship with God, everything was just great! Of course, everyday is a spiritual battle, but I wouldn't trade it for having God in my life. I learned so much, I finally learned to love myself, I showed my family how much they matter to me by spending time with them, going to church with them, communicating more, etc. When I don't spend time with them, I feel as though, I'm missing so much already.

I can't fully explain how happy I am to be where I am right now and how stoked I am to see what God planned for me in the future. See, I wouldn't be here without God's grace and I thank Him each and every day for always holding my hand through all the battles I faced and for being there for the happy times as well.

Yesterday, before sleeping, I read my devotionals and the reading plans I follow on Youversion. The devotionals were talking about dreams or being specific about my future. There were questions that made me reflect, like:
1. What do you want to be be?
2. What do I want to do?
3. What do I want to have?
4. Why do I want it?
My answer surprised me because they were not at all what I wanted before. I wouldn't be specific here, but just to give a hint, it was all about serving God and that dream/plan made me realize that I should start working on it now. Surprisingly, I didn't question myself if I could do it, because at that moment, I knew God is revealing His plans for me and I'm willing to work for it to get to that dream.

What I also realized now is that God is giving me a preview of His plans for me. And I'm definitely looking forward to each moments when God unfolds all His plans for me.

It's just five months and I'm already feeling true happiness, love and appreciation for everything, what more after a year or a few years... I'm still a work in progress and needs polishing.

Well, I need to stay strong for I'll be facing many battles in the future, but no problem is bigger than God, I know I'll get by.

Stay tuned. ;)

x

Prayers

Started the prayer + fasting yesterday, I must say, it's really difficult. But I have not prayed like I have last night. I got to know God better and it feels fantastic!

Lately, been facing a lot of spiritual struggles, but joining this prayer and fasting that we have in my church opens my eyes to the answers and making my heart stronger than ever. See, that's one of my biggest challenges, I feel as though, if a problem comes along, I feel like my heart is not strong enough to handle it, but talking to God and the right people actually helps a lot in making me feel better.

One thing I also realized when I watched the day 1 of the prayer and fasting service at church (online) was when we pray, we need to ask God to examine our hearts and the most important is to know God better as well. If you would notice, when we pray, we always ask God for something, but it wouldn't hurt if we also thank Him for all the things He did for us, to worship Him and to let Him know how much we love Him. Last night, when I prayed, I felt so connected to God because I did not just ask and ask about what I need, I took time to thank Him first and that was the time I realized/felt how blessed I am. Sometimes, despite our struggles, there are still blessings and we should just take a deeper look.

Today, I kept on talking to God and I can't wait to go home to watch the stream of day 2 of the prayer and fasting at church because I'll learn more about the almighty Lord. I'm getting more and more in love with the Lord and that is the place where I want to be.

According to Pastor Peter from last Sunday service: Talk less, pray more. :)