16 August 2014
"Loneliness is when you realise that no one would listen to what you want to say. And you won’t say anything because you have nothing to say."
We all face loneliness in our lives. It comes from different obstacles we go through.
I’ve seen my life crash and burn and left me to feel worthless. I didn’t know where to go and what to do. I have nothing. There would be some instances that triggered my anger and felt like I’m done.
I didn’t want to wake up the next day, I prayed not to wake up. I don’t want to feel the pain in my heart, I don’t want to cry, I don’t want to see my life like this. I tried to physically hurt myself again, and tempted to end my pain. God saved me, He reminded me how much He loves me and Jesus sacrificed His life for us. He is trying to teach me something, He has a bigger plan for my life and it’s not yet over. Then I put the knife down. See, even though I haven’t fixed my finances, I got a bad medical report and I recently lost my job, deep down I still have hope and faith that things will fall into place in due time. God has a bigger plan in my life. That gave me the strength I needed.
"It was supposed to be my end, but it didn’t happen. He didn’t allow me to die. He is God. He saved me from myself, gave me true joy that doesn’t depend whether they love me or not or what they think about me.He taught me to love and give to others more than I can receive."
It wasn’t a proud moment and I wouldn’t really want to share that part of my life because that’s the weakest part of myself. I know that I might help someone who may stumble upon my blog who’s going through a similar battle.
I want to remind you that God loves you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Your life won’t end because you’re going through your biggest battles. God is letting you face that adversity for a higher purpose. We haven’t seen the bigger picture, He does. Surrender your life to Him and let Him fight for you. God will give you the strength you need to fight as well.
Don’t lose hope. Keep believing. Your story isn’t over..it’s just starting. Be patient, persevere and never give up. You will reap your harvest in God’s perfect time. Keep pressing forward.
-N
