Started the prayer + fasting yesterday, I must say, it's really difficult. But I have not prayed like I have last night. I got to know God better and it feels fantastic!
Lately, been facing a lot of spiritual struggles, but joining this prayer and fasting that we have in my church opens my eyes to the answers and making my heart stronger than ever. See, that's one of my biggest challenges, I feel as though, if a problem comes along, I feel like my heart is not strong enough to handle it, but talking to God and the right people actually helps a lot in making me feel better.
One thing I also realized when I watched the day 1 of the prayer and fasting service at church (online) was when we pray, we need to ask God to examine our hearts and the most important is to know God better as well. If you would notice, when we pray, we always ask God for something, but it wouldn't hurt if we also thank Him for all the things He did for us, to worship Him and to let Him know how much we love Him. Last night, when I prayed, I felt so connected to God because I did not just ask and ask about what I need, I took time to thank Him first and that was the time I realized/felt how blessed I am. Sometimes, despite our struggles, there are still blessings and we should just take a deeper look.
Today, I kept on talking to God and I can't wait to go home to watch the stream of day 2 of the prayer and fasting at church because I'll learn more about the almighty Lord. I'm getting more and more in love with the Lord and that is the place where I want to be.
According to Pastor Peter from last Sunday service: Talk less, pray more. :)
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
On My Way - Part 2
Screenshot from the music video On My Way by Boyce Avenue. :)
I cannot stress enough how much I like this song. One of my favorites now.
Law of attraction. That's what I'm doing and at the same time, I'm trying to be the best person I could be in order to have a wonderful future ahead with my future partner.
I just fell in love with that part of the music video, that's why I took a screen shot of it and copied it on my lappy. I also made it my cover photo on Facebook which is kind of ridiculous, however, I don't mind what will other think...at all!
Anyway, I think I'll keep this post short. Goodnight!
New Favorite Music
Mmkay, so recently, I started listening to Ed Sheeran and his music is just awesome! ;) Just the feel good songs I love listening to. ♥ my favorites are Lego House and Kiss Me :)
On My Way
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Should've Waited
I think I made the wrong decision by asking him about what he felt about me two weeks ago. I should have waited, but instead, I followed what my office friends told me to do, which is pretty much the most idiotic thing I've done.
I knew that it was the wrong thing, that's why I was pretty much hesitant the whole time they were texting him. My mind was clouded with so many thoughts, that I thought it was a good idea at the time, because when I talked to my office friends, I was pretty much convinced to do it to get it over with, to find the answer I was looking for.
Now, I know it was wrong, I guess a part of me glad it happened because I know how he feels about me, but at the same time I feel guilty because I felt like I pushed him too far. Basically, just pushed him away. Although, this gave me more clarity about what I truly wanted. I'm not going to hate guys just because this keeps on happening, however, what I truly needed is to love myself first before I could be with anybody and second, I need to embrace being single before I get into a relationship. I wouldn't want to get myself into a situation where in I won't be able to handle or when things get tough, I'll run away from it.
I wanted to be the best that I could be before I get myself into this. Remember, green light? If it would be the right thing for me all along, there should be green lights, no red lights.
Here's a line from How I Met Your Mother that I really liked, this is when Ted told Barney: "We gotta wait for the real thing, no matter how tough it gets."
I knew that it was the wrong thing, that's why I was pretty much hesitant the whole time they were texting him. My mind was clouded with so many thoughts, that I thought it was a good idea at the time, because when I talked to my office friends, I was pretty much convinced to do it to get it over with, to find the answer I was looking for.
Now, I know it was wrong, I guess a part of me glad it happened because I know how he feels about me, but at the same time I feel guilty because I felt like I pushed him too far. Basically, just pushed him away. Although, this gave me more clarity about what I truly wanted. I'm not going to hate guys just because this keeps on happening, however, what I truly needed is to love myself first before I could be with anybody and second, I need to embrace being single before I get into a relationship. I wouldn't want to get myself into a situation where in I won't be able to handle or when things get tough, I'll run away from it.
I wanted to be the best that I could be before I get myself into this. Remember, green light? If it would be the right thing for me all along, there should be green lights, no red lights.
Here's a line from How I Met Your Mother that I really liked, this is when Ted told Barney: "We gotta wait for the real thing, no matter how tough it gets."
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Re-post: “I was asking God “you know, he was such an okay guy...
“I was asking God “you know, he was such an okay guy. Nice, smart, genuinely good. Why didn’t you think he was good enough?” and God said: “because he didn’t love you.” And that really hurt at first but I know at the heart of all that, God’s greatest desire for me is to love and be loved by a man who loves God more than he loves me. That is the only kind of man who could love me right and who would actually willingly lay down his life for me the way Christ did. It’s a powerful promise. And now I understand why it hurts God when we settle. He wants more for us than we believe we could ever deserve.” -Isa Garcia
Source:
http://followandreblog.tumblr.com/post/11521860362/i-was-asking-god-you-know-he-was-such-an-okay
Green Light
Last Friday, I've come into making a decision that's not only heartbreaking, but also difficult to face, until now, I feel like I'm still sulking about it.
Come Sunday, I was talking to my sister, I asked her which should I follow or consider right: if my heart feels it's the right thing to do or when my head is telling me it's the right thing to do?
She told me that thing is, even if we feel like it's our head/heart is telling us it's right, or even if they collide on a certain decision you're about to make, what matters is, if it is God's plan for you. She gave me an example that when it is God's plan for you, you'll only see green lights along the way, but if you see one red light/sign, you should stop. And if you keep on going, it means that you are fighting God's plan for you.
Then, right at that moment, it made me thought about my decision, what made me decide that. However, if it is the right thing for you to begin with, you won't have to be baffled/conflicted about it, you don't need to ask signs to see if you should continue or not, it's the Go, Stop, Slow Down signs that should guide you.
And my sister said that the what ifs are the work of the devil, because it keeps you from going on to the road that God wants you to take.
So now, I pray to see clearly, if I should go or stop, I won't get blinded by what I feel. I won't make excuses for the other person, most especially, I will take a stand for myself when much needed, once you see that a person doesn't have convictions, doesn't have the guts to decide for himself, when he doesn't know when to stop, I guess that was enough proof for me that I should steer clear from him. I've got nothing to lose here. I should stop and move forward.
Come Sunday, I was talking to my sister, I asked her which should I follow or consider right: if my heart feels it's the right thing to do or when my head is telling me it's the right thing to do?
She told me that thing is, even if we feel like it's our head/heart is telling us it's right, or even if they collide on a certain decision you're about to make, what matters is, if it is God's plan for you. She gave me an example that when it is God's plan for you, you'll only see green lights along the way, but if you see one red light/sign, you should stop. And if you keep on going, it means that you are fighting God's plan for you.
Then, right at that moment, it made me thought about my decision, what made me decide that. However, if it is the right thing for you to begin with, you won't have to be baffled/conflicted about it, you don't need to ask signs to see if you should continue or not, it's the Go, Stop, Slow Down signs that should guide you.
And my sister said that the what ifs are the work of the devil, because it keeps you from going on to the road that God wants you to take.
So now, I pray to see clearly, if I should go or stop, I won't get blinded by what I feel. I won't make excuses for the other person, most especially, I will take a stand for myself when much needed, once you see that a person doesn't have convictions, doesn't have the guts to decide for himself, when he doesn't know when to stop, I guess that was enough proof for me that I should steer clear from him. I've got nothing to lose here. I should stop and move forward.
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